People wonder why I`m so attracted and addicted to black men, well that`s very easy to explain. First of all the black boys/guys saved me from depression and exclusion in my early youth. They showed their appreciation and attraction to my fat body and they gave me recognition and loads of intimacy and sex which I needed desperately so I decided to make a lifelong commitment to them Black men are beautiful, handsome, sexy and sensual. I love their exotic dark skin and their huge awesome wonderful black balls and thick long cocks and their attractive confident behaviour. I love their attraction to fat white women like me - many times I`ve experienced that I`m giving them an erection just by the sheer sight of me. I also appreciate their traditional gender views a lot (the man should always be the boss ) I`m also excited by their culture and I have so much sympathy for their troubled history and all the racism they`ve had to endure. OK, the relationships I`ve had with black men haven`t lasted long but it was never their fault. Yes they had some small affairs too but compared to me it was nothing. I couldn`t stay away from other men so the reason we broke up was always because of my notorious infidelity. One of them beat me up but I really deserved it. Black men have so attractive delightful relaxing laid back personalities and their energy and sexual drive in bed is just awesome, they`ve always got me pregnant very easily. Physically they usually have strong sexy athletic muscular bodies and they make me feel like a queen. How can I possibly worship and think of anything else than black men !

Except from one of them being slightly lighter all my children have very dark skin complexion and they look pure black African with typical features, curly hair etc.. Over the years people have been asking me several times whether they`re adopted and I`ve had to tell them many times that I`m their biological mother. When they were small my children were asking me: "My dad is black, I`m black and my siblings are black, how come you are white, mommy?" I think it was difficult to explain to them but now they know. Black people have very strong genes and even though they look overwhelmingly like their fathers I recognize a lot of my own personality in my kids Even though only around 1% of my country`s population have black African background I`ve been surrounded by black people most of my life and I wouldn`t change it for the world I know that I`m pretty different from most other women but luckily we live in a free country

In my early teens I occasionally went on a cabin trip with the black guys on the weekends. The cabin was situated in a remote place by a lake and it was a very popular recreation spot for us. When the water in the lake was cold the guys usually remained on the beach but sometimes they wanted me to take a bath (I was usually the only girl). I knew the water was cold and I didn`t like it particularly but I loved to show off so I took off all my clothes and normally I went for a short swim totally naked I`ve never been shy (needless to say) The guys were watching me when I finished my chilly bath, my nipples were hard and erected and they loved touching and pulling them lollol. The guys were dressed and I was strolling naked among them and I could see that I gave them an erection. During our stay at the cabin I was always letting all the guys fuck me (also needless to say) lol. However although these were great times I haven`t been taking an outside bath (lake/sea) in my country for ages. Now I always prefer to go to Spain, where the climate is better. Spain is one of my favourite countries for vacation

My vagina has been stretched and widened by big black cocks for more than thirty years. Not all black guys are giants and some are quite ordinary but many are really big and I mean BIIIIG :x If I have to choose between length and girth, well of course I prefer both but seriously I prefer thick fat cocks over length and to me girth has been more and more important over the years because my vagina has been made so wide. I`m able to squeeze the thickest (lower part) of a beer bottle inside my vagina A random black guy once called my vagina an "elephant pussy" (after the sex). I was so horny and I was just laughing about it but in retrospective I realize he probably meant it as an insult but to me it was actually a compliment because i want it big to fit the guys

Since I was physically early developed my big breasts gave me attention at school, but not always only among the other pupils. When we were 12-13 and the other girls still only had tiny tits I remember we had a quite young substitute teacher for a period of time. Of course nothing sexual was ever said between us but he was very captivated by my "adult" breasts and he was staring at them when he thought I didn`t see it but I did Sometimes I remember giving him a teasing smile lol. I had already started having sex but any sex with him would have been out of the question (Maybe if he were black lol)

I can sometimes be a bit crazy and at parties in my 20s I sometimes had an unusual performance. I have never smoked regularly but some of the black guys I knew did back then, and I was sometimes entertaining them by lighting a cigarette and smoking it with my pussy ! I had to be a bit careful not to burn myself but I was just using my vaginal muscles on the cigarette and pulled/sucked on it. Then I kept the smoke inside my pussy before I blew it out still using my vaginal muscles and I was usually smoking the whole cigarette. It usually happened late in the evening and there was sometimes 5-6 guys watching me at the same time and they surely appreciated this weird show of mine. For a period of time it even became a kind of funny/sexy tradition I haven`t done it for years because of the foul smell of smoke it creates inside the house.

There is a member in here who writes about me: "she keeps using AI photos" and that "things doesn`t add up". Well out of my around 80 photos 3-4 of them at the most are AI photos and I`ve commented on them and/or I have stated it clearly in the text. The reason I was using them was to show what my dream is, to visit a remote tribe in Africa and since I haven`t been there this was the best and only way to get my message through and as far as I know there are no restrictions on Showitoff concerning telling about your sexual fantasies being as realistic as possible. OK this is for the person who wrote this nonsense: Please identify yourself ,stand up in public and tell me which other ones than the three tribal pics are "AI pics". I can assure you that all the other ones are real pics. And what exactly "doesn`t add up"?? please tell me. It`s all to easy to throw out false accusations without having the slightest evidence. Instead of hiding yourself please contact me directly and I will prove you wrong and refute all your allegations.

In one of my earlier comments I`ve been writing about my vagina having a very strong smell if I`m not cleaning it daily(this is something I`m very much aware of, just saying). I`m a bit hesitant to tell you about this, but I choose to do so. An old schoolmate of mine and her husband have a big male dog. When I`m visiting them and I haven`t had my daily shower yet their dog is very interested in me, or rather in the very distinct smell of my pussy coming through my clothes and their dog is putting its nose tight to my pussy sniffing it. In fact I don`t mind at all and I`m letting it happen because I`m indulging the dog and it`s in a private setting but now and then it sometimes also happens with strange dogs in public and then I`m gently pushing them away of course.

Many years ago I got a second degree sun burn and I was recommended to always use a strong sun block. I love to go to Spain on holidays and fortunately my black men love helping me applying it on my skin Most white people like to get a sun tan but I can do without it and the guys love my pale skin. They say that opposites attract and it`s not a coincidence that my children`s fathers come from African countries like Ghana, Senegal, Gambia and Sudan where people have a very dark skin complexion. When I met them I immediately quit birth control and the guys made an excellent job and got me pregnant like we wanted

For a while now I`ve been considering to have one last child before it`s too late, my seventh. My heart says yes because I love being pregnant and being a birth factory for black children and to brestfeed, and it would also have been awesome to provide you guys in here with consecutive updates and pictures through my pregnancy. The guys also love my milk and two of my black friends have even offered me to be the father of my child and that is so kind of them In my teens I promised myself to have as many black children as possible and I`m still fertile so I`m thinking of removing my spiral birth control and let nature take its course. However on the other hand I`ll be soon turning 44 and even though I always get easily pregnant I will be around 45 when I give birth and over 50 when my child starts attending school. Being a single mother is also kind of hard, I`m always busy and I`m working a lot to provide for my children and another child will mean more work for me. My friends don`t recommend it either but I`m just afraid I`ll regret it later if I don`t go for it so we`ll see...

Sometimes when I go on vacation to Spain/Canary Islands my black male friends are taking turns travelling with me. We usually spend most of the days by the pool and on the beach and the first thing I do is take off my bikini top and expose my naked breasts I love to stroll topless around the pool/poolbar area showing off my big bouncing boobs. Sometimes white guys are staring at me and I think they get a bit jealous when they see me lying down next to my black friend on our sunbed giving him a passionate kiss. To make a statement I`m sometimes letting my friend apply sunscreen on my breasts and we both love it

One shouldn`t be naive because the world is full of deceivers trying to trick you but sometimes one should also take what so-called well-intentioned people are trying to tell you with a big pinch/grain of salt. A member at Showitoff has been harassing me and spreading totally mad accusations about me calling me "a man with a fake account" (!!) and it really upsets me. I was contacting him because I wanted to know why he was writing all these lies but he just went on with his hate and I suspect he did it because I once rejected him. I`ve rejected other men as well but they`ve been fine with it. At first he pretended to like me but apparently he didn`t like my lifestyle and that I was into black men. I can assure you all that I`m 100% honest and genuine and that my account is real. Mostly my lovers are taking my pictures and unless indicated they`re all new or older pictures of me. You can tell by the rose tattoo I have on my right upper arm (the only real tattoo that I have). I respect that some people don`t accept my sexual preferences but I`m still wondering why he had to create this crazy disinformation about me but now I`ve banned him so I will probably never know. Keyboard warriors hiding behind secret identities are everywhere and unfortunately when they`re spreading their lies and hate you really don`t stand a chance against them.

My two youngest children are two and four years old and my grandchild is now eight. During my last two pregnancies she was soo excited with me and my growing belly and she was telling everybody that "granny`s gonna have a baby" She`s so cute and she`s still my little angel When we were out together and people saw my pregnant belly they always thought my grandchild was my daughter and I had to tell them about our weird family structure, haha

Many guys love my huge ass but in here I`m best known for my big natural tits and I love that . Although I only allow black men to touch my intimate parts everyone can feel free to enjoy my pictures and look at my body in public. Yes my tits are big and they`re hanging and when I take off my bra they drop down to my belly button (gravity is a bitch) lol. I now and then go out without a bra but since my boobs are bouncing and swaying big time inside my t-shirt when I walk I`m not allowed to go without a bra by my oldest daughter when I`m with her, especially when her friends are there because it makes her embarrassed(haha). When I go to bars and clubs with my friends on weekends I sometimes leave my bra at home and if I meet a handsome black guy I`m sometimes lifting up my t-shirt discreetly and give him a preview before I usually end up in a bed and get fucked somewhere I remember many years ago I was a bit careless and an employee saw what I did so I was asked to leave the premises (haha) When I leave with random men my friends are telling me to be careful but as long as I`m giving them exactly what they want we both end up satisfied so that`s never a problem Like the Eiffel Tower is associated with Paris and the pyramids with Egypt my big tits have always been associated with me. I know I`m not 20 anymore but I love to expose my body by wearing sexy provocative clothing and my breasts have given me a lot of extra sex over the years I`m 44 now and lately I`ve become more conscious about my physical health and I`ve started to let my black doctor examine my breasts and vagina regularly to prevent breast cancer and venereal diseases. I`ve uploaded some posts about it.

When I`m going out and I meet black guys I`m a teaser and I like to flirt Especially after a few drinks I often become sexually suggestive and fortunately nobody have ever had anything against it OK, I`m in my early 40s but I love to dress sexually provocative showing off my big curves and combined with my outgoing happy personality I`m good at catching the black guy`s attention. I love to get fucked but when it comes to sex I`m actually more a giver than a receiver and as long as a guy is showing his attraction to me I love to give him what he wants even though he`s not especially good looking or even ugly. I know that black men are craving for my huge ass and big tits/fat pussy and I love to give them sexual satisfaction because they really deserve my body I sometimes touch them discreetly on the right places and it really turns me on seeing that I create a nice bulge in their pants. I`ve stopped being picky and when I`m hitting on a less attractive black man I sometimes notice that they feel very proud, not only because they know what`s in store for them but also because I`m their white curvy trophy And they`re sometimes well endowed too

One of many reasons I prefer black men is that they`re usually so masculine and dominant both in a relationship and during sex and I absolutely love that. I love being a traditional house wife and to please my man whenever he`s needy. I`ve had hundreds of men and inevitably I remember some better than others. I`ve just posted a picture that a black guy took of me after he gave me some really rough sex and ruined my pussy I met him at a club not long ago and he was so good looking and superior. We were both a bit tipsy and he went almost straight to the point and told me he wanted to fuck me (!). We went to his place and he was really rough and dominant towards me. He loved my huge ass and he was spanking it hard and was beating and pinching my tits (they can take a lot) . My breasts are still producing some milk and he was very pleased when I started lactating. Of course I sucked his big fat cock and having it inside my mouth was so delicious He fucked me hard over and over again like a big bull breeding a cow making me moan with desire and he told me he wanted me to be his white property We swapped numbers and I went home very enthusiastic and glowing Oddly he hasn`t called me but frankly he seemed like a "use and throw" kind of guy. On the other hand I long to meet him again because the sex he gave me was truly awesome but I`m a bit afraid of contacting him because I fear that he will force me into a relationship and I don`t want that. I want to stay single and if I reject him maybe he will stalk me and just the feeling of it makes me sick and afraid. But as the saying goes "it`s better to regret something you didn`t do". It would be wise of me to delete his number but the rough sex he gave me was just heavenly divine

I want to be considerate towards my family, my children and everyone who knows me. I don`t want people to recognize me and I don`t want my loved ones to feel embarrassed, so that`s why I choose to not show my face on my public pictures. Sometimes when I post pictures of black men they are accompanied by other women whose faces you can see but these women could just as well be me. I value discretion very high because I don`t want to create awkward situations.

As I`ve mentioned before I love to go to Spain/Canary Islands for holidays both for the nice weather and also because they`re so liberal when it comes to toplessness/nudity. Some years ago I was staying in an apartment complex in Mallorca and I was sitting on my balcony topless exposing my breasts and enjoying the sun. Diagonally across from my balcony there was a white family with a son at the age of probably 14-16 years and I`m positive that he was watching me from above (5-6 metres away) I pretended not to notice him because I really liked that he was looking at me so I sometimes closed my eyes but on the other hand I was a bit curious so I opened my eyes now and then and sometimes I saw him with his phone apparently taking pictures of the sea and the pool but I`m 100% sure that he was taking pictures of me as well This happened during several days and I really indulged him the pleasure enjoying my pictures

When I was 12 I made myself available to many black guys, and starting having sex was just wonderful. There was one certain incident in particular that I still remember quite clearly There was one of the guys and he was very big, especially regarding his thickness/girth. At first I was doubtful and even scared of his almost monstruous cock but I was horny. However to enter my vagina he had to squeeze inside very slowly, I was wet but in spite of that I think he needed a couple of minutes to get inside me. When finally inside it felt like we were completely stuck and locked together because he waited a bit before starting thrusting but eventually we finished off quite well. The first sex with him was a bit painful and I didn`t get an orgasm but he fucked me several times later and he gave me some divine orgasms I was writing this down in my diary which I still have

I`ve had literally hundreds of different black guys but the fact is that I`ve never ever had sex with a white guy before, not even once! (yes that is the truth and the fact that my children`s fathers are all black men says it all) As I`ve told you before I was ridiculed by the white boys at a very early age because I was fat but fortunately the black boys befriended me and embraced me and that was just what I needed because I was only 12 and very vulnerable so I made myself a commitment to only stick to them. (Mentally I don`t have anything against white men, just saying).Many years ago I remember going out one weekend for some drinks with my friends. We met some really nice white guys and particularly one of them was very handsome complimenting my body. I knew what he wanted and eventually he invited me to his place. Maybe I should have kept my mouth shut but he seemed so respectful so I told him that I only have sex with black men. Well,suddenly he went from being nice to turning totally mad and he started calling me bad names like "n****r whore" etc. so he furiously went away with his friends.I became very upset by the sudden change of atmosphere and my friends had to comfort me but fortunately I met a nice black guy a bit later that evening and the night had a happy ending like so many times before lol. It`s not like the black guys are always taking the first step, I can be sexually seductive as well , and I`ve never had any bad experiences when meeting black men but it`s probably because things end up like we both want lol I don`t expect people to understand me but even if I were physically attracted to white men having sex with them would make me feel unfaithful and my commitment to black men is lifelong

Luckily I`ve never been raped. If I was raped by a white guy I would probably have got a mental breakdown. Don`t get me wrong, I hope it will never happen but if a black guy assaulted me and raped me I wouldn`t have resisted because it would probably be useless anyway and I would have tried to enjoy it if possible making the best out of it. I would have forgiven him and be understanding towards him because I know that my curvy body sometimes makes black guys very horny. I know it maybe sounds crazy but all black men have their right to fuck me, also a rapist. To prevent him from feeling guilty I would have told him that I forgave him what he did to me, and not resisting would prevent my clothes from being ruined as well. Maybe I have a strange abnormal view on this but that`s how I am.

I have many crazy sexual fantasies and here is one of them : I`m on a vacation in a country with a lot of desert. My mother will be at our hotel taking care of my toddler and I`m joining a group of 3-4 nice random male tourists for a private excursion in the desert. However we`re all inexperienced and we get lost in the burning hot desert. I just drank the rest of our water and particularly the 3-4 men start to become seriously dehydrated which can be life-threatening. Luckily I haven`t pumped my breasts so they are bursting full of milk. To save the guys from dehydration I have to give them my milk but we don`t have any cups and they all have to drink directly from my breasts so I breastfeed all of them. Eventually we find the right direction out of the desert and we all survive thanks to my milk It`s just a fantasy but it`s almost like I would like it to happen for real